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A Gift with Strings Attached?

3/5/2016

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If someone whom you didn't know offered you a gift, would you take it without reservations or would you reject it thinking that there had to be a catch?

Well this exact situation happened to me and I will tell you, I paused and did not receive the gift.  This was my loss, for the gift was a worship CD.  Let me give you some context.

Last Sunday we had a guest speaker in our service.  While many in the congregation where familiar with him, and even knew him, I did not know him.  It would be my first time to hear him deliver God's message.  So after he was introduced, he settled himself at the podium, and proceeded to thank the family that was hosting him.  He gave them a book by A.W. Tower on prayer.  I thought: man, that's so nice of him. 

After this he spoke to the congregation and lifted up a CD (for all to see) and asked who would like the CD?  It would go to the person who would come up to the front and take it.  No one stood up.  I was thinking, is this an object lesson?  Like when you get to the front, something is going to happen?  I most certainly don't want to be the one of whom an object lesson would be made (I'm extremely shy).  Again, he repeated the invitation to receive the FREE CD.  At this time, one of my brothers who was sitting behind me stood up and received it.  I was waiting for the trap to snap as soon as the cheese had been retrieved by the mouse.  Nope.  No such thing happen.  My brother made it back to his seat in one piece.  So then I moved from skepticism to disbelief.  

Next, he lifted up a book: A Collection of Wit and Wisdom of Adrian Rogers.  So I confess, at this time, I thought: I really REALLY want that book! (Exclamation point and all)  And mind you, not just because I love books, but because I had actually been saving up to purchase a book with Adrianisms.  Just as before, he stated that whoever wanted the book would get it, to just come to the front and receive it.  So then I started thinking: This isn't for real; it just isn't.  The speaker was stunned, no one was getting up.  So much so, that he said something to the effect of:  what's going on with you people that you won't accept a gift.  So at this moment, I thought: well, this could be for real, but, I should not get up; there is someone else who needs that book and I would just be stealing it from them (if you think this is crazy, you should hear the conversations I'm constantly having with myself - it's the stuff of insane asylums).  He repeated his call: if you want this, come and receive it.  At this time I found myself in a crisis of belief, a la Henry Blackaby: Either I took action to move forward or stayed still and miss the boat.  So it was that I moved from disbelief to a crisis of belief.  

Somewhat hesitantly, I got up and sped-walked to the front,  received the book and sped-walked back to my seat and sat down (about this time I could hear my adrenal glands pumping out the adrenaline that was running through my body).  I barely looked at the book my hands were holding; I was trying to placate the thought that now something was going to happen and I would be, indeed, part of an object lesson.  To my incredulity, the speaker went on to give out another gift and promptly started his message.  At this time, the 1,001 thoughts that were racing thru my mind evaporated by the love-imbued, Spirit-filled, and truth-packed message that was delivered.

It turns out I was, indeed, an object lesson; and not one, but two.  However, it wasn't the speaker who made the lessons - it was God. 

Object lesson #1: T God's children, A FREE gift does NOT have strings attached.

I debated about using the word 'free' with gift, because honestly, it's redundant.  However, I cannot deny that I have been gifted in times past (as I am sure you have too) gifts that did come with strings attached.  It is actually those experiences that have made me cynical about receiving gifts.  If this is unfamiliar territory to you, then just think about political campaigns and donors of said campaigns; their donations are not donations, they are 'investments' and as good investors, they expect a good return on their investments. 

So, when God is giving us gifts, we should not expect for Him to treat it as an investment.  He gives us gifts because He loves us, not to get something in return.  The truth is, He doesn't need us or anything we can give to Him, so His gifts are truly NO STRINGS ATTACHED.  That is what Grace is: a gift.  If there is any guilt present, then know that it is not of God.  Guilt is a heavy burden that makes us run away from God, and it is from the enemy.  Conviction, on the other hand, is light, making us move toward Jesus and fall at His feat and repent.  Conviction is from God.  So: Guilt leads us away from Christ.  Conviction leads us to Christ.

Back to receiving gifts.  I must confess, that it is easier for me to accept a gift from God thinking it is an investment (and therefore I must give Him the return on His investment) instead of a gift (where He doesn't expect anything from me).  Why?  Well because, just as with salvation, it is easier to rely on my 'good' works to be sanctified.  If I am good, then I will get good gifts.  However, I have to tell you, I have received gifts from God even though I have not been good.  And that's where the monkey wrench comes to ruin my works-based sanctification, because even sanctification is by GRACE, not by works.  Otherwise, what would we do with the promise: He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it until the day of Christ Jesus (Phil 1:6)?  What work was began? Salvation.  What will be completed? Sanctification (being made more like Christ).  Who's responsible for this?  God Himself.  The Holy Spirit is tasked with presenting the Bride of Christ blameless.  That means, I'm His makeover project!  And so are you! 

So if you sin, remember to confess your sins for He is faithful and just to cleanse us from ALL iniquity (1 Jn 1:9).  And when you receive gifts from God, remember that it is His lovingkindness that leads us to repentance (Rm 2:4), so receive it and thank Him for it.

So now to the other side of the coin...

Object lesson #2: To the lost, a free gift DOES have strings attached.

How many times have we sat back in frustration at how someone with whom the gospel has been shared rejects the gift of life?  I know I do.  In fact, it doesn't make sense.  Why would anyone reject a gift? This sounds awfully familiar...oh yeah! I answered this question by rejecting the worship CD, remember?

They live in a world of ALL strings attached.  So when we offer a gift, they are looking for the strings.  This object lesson helped me understand those who cannot accept that God would give them life thru Christ Jesus in spite of their wickedness.   This is a subset of all the people who ultimately end up rejecting God; so don't think I am generalizing this to everyone.  This is just applicable to those who cannot accept a free gift because they see strings where no strings exist.

Just as I have been burned many a time with 'investments', so, too, have these people who cannot fathom a free gift.  This lesson helped me put myself in those shoes, so that when I encounter someone who cannot get up from his or her seat to receive a gift, I can love them and encourage them and, most importantly, pray for their eyes to be opened to the stringless gift before their eyes.  In other words, do what is at my disposal to lovingly help someone incapable of getting out of their seat to receive the gift being extended to them.

This lesson was heartbreaking; I truly felt such compassion for lost souls who cannot get out of their seats because receiving something free cannot be processed by their minds and hearts.  Now I know how to pray.

So next time we encounter someone who seems to want the gift of salvation but is hesitating, pray for discernment.  Perhaps he or she is unable to move out of their seat to receive the gift because they expect the strings to be pulled and strangle them.  We must do what Jesus did for us, love them as they are and pray for them to see the truth and get a hold of that Truth - appropriate that truth.  And let us show them with our lives and love that the gift is truly FREE, and they will find freedom from all the strings that ever were in that Gift.

Well, I'm sure there are many more lessons to draw from this experience (and I would love to hear them if the Lord reveals them to you); for now, I need to mediate on these a bit more.

May the Lord bless you with all spiritual blessings - and may you receive them without guilt or hesitation!


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Undone

7/31/2012

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If there is anything my mouth could speak at this moment it would be the words of Isaiah: Woe is me, for I am undone.

“Woe is me, for I am undone!
Because I am a man of unclean lips,
And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips;
For my eyes have seen the King, The Lord of hosts.”
Isaiah 6:5

Sometimes we don't see how unclean we are until the Light of the Lord shines brightly on us.  Then we see our wicked heart - and even what we see is just the tip of the iceberg of our wickedness.  The tip of the iceberg of my wickedness.

How many times do we sin and, though we are convicted of sin and repent of it, we don't see the depth and magnitude of our sin?  Not just seeing the consequences, but seeing how sinful our sin is? 

This is just like what I experienced with icing.  I really like icing, buttercream icing to be specific.  Whenever I would eat cake, I would make sure that I would get a good portion of icing - and while I did know that icing was not good for my health, I did not realize to what extent.  Then one day there was a cupcake contest in which I wanted to participate; I had baked cakes before, but not cupcakes.  But more importantly, I had not made icing to decorate the cakes.  When I looked up the recipe for icing, I went into a sort of shock.  I just couldn't believe it.  I had no idea that icing is butter and sugar.  I was so shocked!  I just thought, eating icing is like eating a stick of butter with sugar.  Wow!!  Heart attacks and diabetes!  I wish this would have been enough to keep me away from icing for good.  And while I have not eliminated icing completely, when I do eat cake, I try to not eat the corners of cakes or portions that are heavily decorated.

Sin is as deeply clogging as the butter and insidious and numbing like the sugar.  Sweet poison.

This is exactly what has happened to me.  I sin and I repent of my sin.  But just recently, my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of Hosts, and I have not only seen my sin, but have seen how deep, insidious, and numbing sin is, and how Holy, Holy, HOLY God is.  Woe is me. Woe is me.

I am undone.  All I can say is that, like the movie Amazing Grace states, I am a great sinner and Christ is a great savior. 

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for taking the beatings for me.  For taking the torture for me.  For taking the abuse for me.  And with tears in my eyes and weeping in my heart, thank you for receiving the wrath of Your Father that was meant for me.  To you alone be any and all glory!  There is none like you. None.

Song: We will run by Gunger (again, I didn't put this together - just linking).

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Humbling myself before a Holy God

10/12/2011

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What is to be humble?  Is it to have a low self esteem? Is it to be contrite?

A good friend of mine was sharing with me that in the fast food industry, the cashiers are taught to differentiate between counterfeit bills and authentic bills using a peculiar method.  They are trained to differentiate the counterfeit from the authentic by having them handle ONLY the authentic bill.  They are never given a counterfeit to compare or examine closely; the are to manipulate the authentic bill as much as possible, but never the counterfeit.  She went on to say that we are to do likewise with the Truth.  We are not to study the counterfeit (the lies Satan whispers to us) and why they are counterfeits - we are to study and meditate upon the truth ALONE.  That way, when the counterfeit enters our life, we can easily detect the lie and reject it.

And so the Lord would teach me about humility in the same manner, only I wasn't aware of it until looking back.

The Lord says that He gives grace to the humble but resists the proud (James 4:6).  For so many years I was blinded by my pride to how prideful I am.  In beholding my Christ, He has opened my eyes to His humility.  In seeing humility in action, I saw my pride in action.   In seeing the Truth, I saw the counterfeit in me.

Self-serving sin (pride), selfish motives (pride), self-worship (pride), keep me from seeing Christ in all, from receiving His word from His children, from loving all as He loves me and as He loves them.  But I can't get rid of this pride - period.  I am rendered powerless to cast this out of me. 

Only a miracle can rid me of my pride, which is the root of my sins - and I thank God for Christ Jesus who, having redeemed me with His death on the Cross and Resurrection, sent the Counselor that He might work that miracle in me.  Which miracle? The miracle that I may look more like Christ and less like me.  The miracle of giving me the desire that I be nothing that He may be everything - humility.  The miracle of molding me into a servant of all, like Jesus modeled for us when He took the form of a bond servant and made Himself of no reputation, becoming obedient unto death - even the death of the Cross (Phil 2:5-9).

I have been reminded several times by my sisters in Christ that humility is not thinking less of myself, but thinking of myself less.  After listening to 'Break the Chains' by Misty Edwards, I was taken on a journey of realization of who I am before the Holy God of all creation.

I pray this following song is a real blessing and takes you on the journey from self-sufficiency to total dependence on Jesus.  Listen to the words and meditate upon them - let the Holy Spirit lead you.  The 9 minutes are worth listening.
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A song

8/8/2011

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I have to post this simply because this song ministered to me as I am dealing with the subject: Shame.

The song says it all.

Shame by Fernando Ortega

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Lover of My Soul

4/8/2011

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Rejecting love when it is offered - frustrating.  Rejecting love when it is offered in addition to it being direly needed - pitiful and lamentable.

My Lord has taught me, but most importantly, lovingly showed me that He was giving me love and I was rejecting it while in utter need of it.  I didn't realize I was doing just that - rejecting the love of the Lover of my soul.

He has opened my eyes to this condition: I believed lies that I was unworthy of love.  Whenever love was offered, I would reject it because I was not worthy of it; I was starving for love.  How clever of the enemy to place a child of God in a catch 22. 

I praise my Lord, my Saviour, for having compassion of me and touching my wounds that He may heal them.  He whispered this to me:

"Trust in Me at all times, my beautiful daughter; pour out your heart before Me; I am a refuge for you. Selah" Psalm 62:8

So I did just that; I poured out my heart to Him and He hid me under His wings.  Trusting Him with those 'good' things is easy, trusting Him with my wounds was and is hard.  Yet, He was gentle to love me through it all and comfort me.  Truly, He is my Shepherd, leading me beside the still waters and restoring my soul.

I pray I allow Him to empty my heart that He may fill it with His love; then, I can pour His love into others.



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Restoring what is broken

3/7/2011

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"So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten..." Joel 2:25

This song by Selah, titled Unredeemed, is a beautiful reminder that the Lord redeems - He brings beauty from ashes.  I found this youtube video with the song put to a slide show.  I pray this blesses you.

The song and lyrics belong to Selah, so I assume they are copyrighted by Selah.  No copyright infringement is intended with sharing this video.  Incidentally, I highly recommend buying the album of which this song is a part - really powerful.
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In Christ Alone

3/6/2011

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Amazing testimony of the transforming power that is found in Christ.  Past abuse does not need to dictate your future - find freedom in Christ.

Allow some time for video to load (~ 15 seconds).


Soul Surgery - Victor Marx - Psalm 23 from Calvary Chapel West Oahu on Vimeo.

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Friendly Wounds

9/19/2010

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I’ve spent many days praying and pondering on what should I post on His Blog.  And there are many posts that I started writing...and then deleted.  It just didn’t seem to be the post that needed to go up.

The Lord has told me to preach from the housetops that which He teaches me in the dark (Mt 10:27).  He has shown me many truths in my time with Him, my reading of scripture, through my Pastor when he teaches, through discipleship, and through devotionals.  Yet, all of that doesn’t seem to be what today’s post is to be.


I have nothing to offer – except that which I have lived and where Christ has revealed Himself to me (and confirmed by scripture).


So today’s post will be about getting hurt and forgiving.  Getting hurt by those who love you and forgiving those we love.


We expect to be hurt by our enemies; it is, perhaps, their goal to see our destruction.  We are very well aware of this and, therefore, prepare for that ‘battle’ (at least we try to prepare for it) with the love of Christ.  We know that we cannot do anything without Christ because unless we abide in Him, we can do nothing.  It appears that we understand this somewhat; we seem to grasp this truth for split seconds in our lives.


Yet, when we are hurt by those who love us - and we know that they love us - we seem to be cut deeper than our enemy’s spear.  Why?  Could it be that we are vulnerable to those who love us and so the wound not only stings, but debilitates our whole being? 

While we are told to love our enemies, pray for those who persecute us, and bless those who curse us, I seem to ‘process’ healing differently for those who love me (and know the Lord).  While I have forgiven my brother or sister when they have wounded me and asked for forgiveness, I feel weak.  It may sound crazy, but this weakness is not limited to the spiritual realm, I feel weakness in my soul and body.  Why?

I know some would say (as I, too, say): indeed it is because you have not forgiven; you are still holding this individual responsible for your wound - you must let him/her go.  But in all honesty, I would and do answer that I have forgiven him or her.  I don’t want to withhold forgiveness from those whom I love (and also from those who seek to destroy me); not only because the Lord commands me to do so, but because that is what Christ did for me.  This, however, doesn’t make the sting un-sting; this doesn’t make the wound un-wound.  Nevertheless, I can say today that the sting is un-stung, the wound is un-wounded.

So what did I learn, with pain (so that it will be etched in my heart and not archived in some folder within my memory), about being wounded by those who love us and forgiving those we love?  It is a miracle.


Miracle that being the beast that I am, Christ died for my sins.
Miracle that in this fallen state, we can utter the words: I forgive you.

Miracle that the wounds are healed by God Himself.

Miracle that we don’t inflict more wounds than we already do.

Miracle that we are able to look at pain and forgiveness with God's reason and love.

Miracle that He molds and transforms us to His image through the pain of wounding and the healing of forgiving.

It is all a miracle.


In my view (perhaps not the dictionary’s or a theologian’s view), a miracle is an action, event, feeling, decision, or state that is changed, not by man’s efforts but by God’s hand, from what was its original purpose to a purpose that glorifies God. 


So a wound was meant to hurt; the miracle is that the wound is lifted and love is left in its place. 


The pain was meant to bring unforgiveness and war; the miracle is that we forgive despite feeling pain and peace overcomes. 


The weakness was meant to isolate us from our brothers and sisters and our Father; the miracle is that from the ashes, we rise and come together with our brother or sister to worship our Lord (not by our strength, but by His).

The hand of God moves the hearts of kings, the events in history, the planets and galaxies in the universe.  Thank you Holy Spirit for moving our willful hearts to do and conform to the will of the Father.  Thank you for emptying these vessels. 

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