Dazed and confused

7/26/2012

I don't normally write on the blog to process anything. Usually I will write about something the Lord has recently taught, revealed, or changed in me. But I feel that this time I have to write as I'm going thru the foggy, dark and stormy night.

There's a decision to be made, a fork in the road, and I can't hear His voice. It feels like my head has been pushed under water in an attempt to drown me. Masked figures have beaten me. An ominous silence that shrieks in your ears. Invisible hands cut me in an attempt to make me believe it's all in my head. It's all battle, battle, battle. Battling ghosts of the past (with very real present threats), battling dysfunctionality, and battling the strong desire of the flesh.

To stay or turn around. To let people down and go to where the Lord is pointing. To place yourself in harms way and stay where the Lord is saying to stay. Which of these statements is true?

Though today I am sinking, I know He will show up. Will I have the faith to wait for Him? Will I have the obedience to do what He instructs day by day?

I know you may be thinking: She's lacking faith. She's focused on herself. She is simply looking at the winds. She's not fixing her eyes on Jesus. Yes, I am guilty of all. This is where I am today. Have you been here at some point in your life? Remember...

All I need is His hand, His word. He will meet me where I am and take me to where He is. Today I am sinking. Tomorrow, by faith, I know He will have stretched out His hand and saved me.

In the meantime, this is where I am.

3 Comments

Marcia Millard

7/27/2012 01:16:43 am

Alicia,
This is exactly where my husband and I are in our journey as well. I believe God is cleaning up His house and putting His children in order for something like we have never seen before. All over the country we have friends and family that are "going through it" and being refined by fire. God's hand is at the grinding mill, winnowing out the chaff in all of our lives, and preparing us for a great work. Come Holy Spirit is my plea for all of us. We need you in our lives for clarity and discernment, to see and hear and know in which way we should take to be in God's will, and to accomplish His will for our lives. Be encouraged today to continue through the cloud of fog you are walking through, for beyond it we know there is a clarity to see that which we know lay beyond. What a glorious day that will be!
Praying for you! :)

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7/27/2012 03:33:39 pm

Marcia - thank you so much for this comment! Wow, your prayer became my prayer. So timely and thank you for sharing! The Lord has opened my eyes to see that this is beyond the present circumstance I am in and it has everything to do with His kingdom, being refined by fire, and transforming me more to His image. I 'know' this with my head, but it is in the fire that this knowledge has to make that trek from the head to the heart - and that is the painful part. But I am so thrilled that He does not give up on us. I will be praying for you and your husband! Big hug!

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10/18/2013 07:01:27 am

Thanks for posting this

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~ Alicia
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