There's a decision to be made, a fork in the road, and I can't hear His voice. It feels like my head has been pushed under water in an attempt to drown me. Masked figures have beaten me. An ominous silence that shrieks in your ears. Invisible hands cut me in an attempt to make me believe it's all in my head. It's all battle, battle, battle. Battling ghosts of the past (with very real present threats), battling dysfunctionality, and battling the strong desire of the flesh.
To stay or turn around. To let people down and go to where the Lord is pointing. To place yourself in harms way and stay where the Lord is saying to stay. Which of these statements is true?
Though today I am sinking, I know He will show up. Will I have the faith to wait for Him? Will I have the obedience to do what He instructs day by day?
I know you may be thinking: She's lacking faith. She's focused on herself. She is simply looking at the winds. She's not fixing her eyes on Jesus. Yes, I am guilty of all. This is where I am today. Have you been here at some point in your life? Remember...
All I need is His hand, His word. He will meet me where I am and take me to where He is. Today I am sinking. Tomorrow, by faith, I know He will have stretched out His hand and saved me.
In the meantime, this is where I am.