Existing is difficult; existing and being invisible, painful.
It is difficult to fight a disease without first having its diagnosis. In like manner, it is difficult to confront a lie I have believed without knowing the name of the lie. Even more difficult is knowing what constitutes a lie...
That is why, as the Lord brings the lie to the surface, He names the lie that I have believed all my life, a lie that has shaped my character, my behavior, my outlook, and the perception of myself. This process is difficult. It is painful. It causes tremulous fear.
The name of this lie?...My existence is not acknowledged because I am not important, and I am not important because no one cares about or loves me...My pain has no feelings. My voice is inaudible. I am invisible. I do not exist.
This defined my existence from the time I began to use reason. BUT, God is merciful toward me in that He has opened my eyes to His eyes. He has opened my ears to His voice. He has given me a voice for His ears. He sees me - and not just me, He sees me completely. For He sees my heart, both wickedness and the light brought by my redemption through His Son.
I have said to Him: HEAR my cry, o God! ATTEND to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will CRY to You, when my heart is overwhelmed.
And He answered: I am a shelter for you, a strong tower from the enemy. You will abide in My tabernacle forever; you will trust in the shelter of My wings. For I, Your God, have HEARD your vows; I have given you the heritage of those who fear My Name...So you will SING praise to My Name forever. Psalm 61
He sees my pain. He hears my cry. He listens to my prayer. He offers me His wings to cover me and shelter me. I exist in Him. He loves me, for He knew me when He was forming my inward parts when in my mother's womb (Psalm 139:13) and He was my God from my mother's womb (Psalm 22:10). He created me, therefore I do exist. Christ died for me, therefore He does love me.
Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.
It is difficult to fight a disease without first having its diagnosis. In like manner, it is difficult to confront a lie I have believed without knowing the name of the lie. Even more difficult is knowing what constitutes a lie...
That is why, as the Lord brings the lie to the surface, He names the lie that I have believed all my life, a lie that has shaped my character, my behavior, my outlook, and the perception of myself. This process is difficult. It is painful. It causes tremulous fear.
The name of this lie?...My existence is not acknowledged because I am not important, and I am not important because no one cares about or loves me...My pain has no feelings. My voice is inaudible. I am invisible. I do not exist.
This defined my existence from the time I began to use reason. BUT, God is merciful toward me in that He has opened my eyes to His eyes. He has opened my ears to His voice. He has given me a voice for His ears. He sees me - and not just me, He sees me completely. For He sees my heart, both wickedness and the light brought by my redemption through His Son.
I have said to Him: HEAR my cry, o God! ATTEND to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will CRY to You, when my heart is overwhelmed.
And He answered: I am a shelter for you, a strong tower from the enemy. You will abide in My tabernacle forever; you will trust in the shelter of My wings. For I, Your God, have HEARD your vows; I have given you the heritage of those who fear My Name...So you will SING praise to My Name forever. Psalm 61
He sees my pain. He hears my cry. He listens to my prayer. He offers me His wings to cover me and shelter me. I exist in Him. He loves me, for He knew me when He was forming my inward parts when in my mother's womb (Psalm 139:13) and He was my God from my mother's womb (Psalm 22:10). He created me, therefore I do exist. Christ died for me, therefore He does love me.
Lord, I believe; help my unbelief.
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